enlightenment: part two

my head reverberates    everything

and then somewhere it has been muffled out.

It's been sending a clear frequency lately though.

my prayers are being answered, 

I am becoming strong within myself, decisive even.

I guess a wake up call was necessary;

I just wonder how I let the others pass me by...

even though they were most likely screaming bloody murder.

I am no longer taking zoloft;

there is no way I could be given an accurate prescription for this merely by speaking to me for 20 minutes,

unless it was by chance. 

I am going to be seeing a herbal psychotherapist that my dad was friends with,

I imagine that having an external source to that extreme may help a lot.

but, it's still my burden in the end.

This resides within me, and ultimately only I can escort it out.

It's ok though.

I have learned to accept this.

I've learned to accept a lot of things actually.

while in many aspects it's upsetting,

it's also a breathe of fresh air,

to have pure determination and concentration,

to be able to comprehend my life and take action.

I will keep my eyes to the sky;

I'll have faith and focus on the good,

in all realms of time.

I can pull through,

I can apply this to when I need it.

I can handle it, 

I've made up my mind.

and now, it's your turn darling.